Friday, May 20, 2011

Last Chance to Lose Your Keys

Well, I am (since we are passed midnight here) 2 months pregnant. :)

Before midnight I went to the Dr. It was a very eventful trip so say the least. I found out that I have a clotting disorder just not the one that they thought. This thing effects 1-2 % of the population. If you have this type you have a 40% chance to have this other one that makes life more difficult for you. Luckily I do not have the other. Silver lining I guess.

What does this mean for me and the baby blob, who has a heartbeat of 170, we get sent to a specialist and probably end up getting a shot every day for the rest of my pregnancy and the 6 weeks following. My doctor doesn't seem overly concerned me? I am freaking out. What happens if I, being the klutz that I am, run into something and cut myself? What happens if I get into a wreck? What happens if the baby decides it wants to come early and I haven't stopped my blood thinners? I bleed out? Leave my child motherless? Leave my boyfriend a single parent?

Yes, a lot of "what if's" but, you gotta think about these things. Needless to say, I am freaking out badly. Now is the time I need support and probably a lot of it. I am not sure anyone around me even realizes how scared I am. Not just for me but, I could pass this on to my child. (Great parenting already) Add this to my already crazy hormones and I am not doing so well right now. I'd like nothing more than to lay under the covers and stay there without anyone. Just me, my ipod & my reader.
In the words from PS I love you "You gotta be rich to be insane"

1 comment:

  1. Girl I cant imagine how you feel, and you know no matter what you can text me or call ( you know I live in the middle of BF Egypt currently but I will drive into town to call you back! thinking of ya and good juju coming your way! hah.. you are a good mom and give yourself credit!